Sophia Bush Details Alleged Physical and Emotional Abuse on TV Show Set in Conversation with Monica Lewinsky

Sophia Bush is talking out a couple of poisonous work surroundings and the alleged trauma she endured in consequence.

On the Tuesday, June 3, episode of Reclaiming with Monica Lewinsky, Bush, 42, recalled becoming a member of a tv collection after her nine-year run on the teenager drama One Tree Hill, which wrapped in 2012.

While she didn’t instantly identify the TV present, she shared that it was on her “bucket record.” However, she suffered “all kinds” of abuse on the set, with “someone old enough to be [her] father.”

“When I look back at it, I had the opportunity after two years to go,” Bush defined. “I did the thing I learned to do and said, ‘I will not have my integrity diminished by someone else’s behavior. I will be unflappable. I will come to work and do my job.’ And I couldn’t.”

She recalled waking up in “bodily hell,” having a “spontaneous sickness” and being “lined in hives.” Bush stated throughout this time, her weight additionally fluctuated and she or he skilled hair loss.

“As an extrovert who loves individuals, to be hit with anxiousness in such a manner that I may barely be out of the home; if individuals touched me in public, I might soar out of my pores and skin,” she recalled. “I couldn’t discuss to individuals anymore. I couldn’t discuss to strangers anymore. I couldn’t be checked out anymore, particularly within the work surroundings.”

Bush stated she discovered herself changing into defensive whereas engaged on the collection, one thing she’d by no means skilled earlier than. “Because I had to go to work ready for war all the time, I had to learn where to stand to not get elbowed in the ribs or how to block a scene to not be touched. It was just exhausting,” she claimed.

The actress stated she wasn’t in a position to exit the present till April 2017, a couple of months earlier than the #MeToo motion started. “By October [2017], I got a call from an executive apologizing for what they’d done and not done,” she stated. “And [they] said, ‘We’re very aware we just made it out of that unscathed.’ ”

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While Bush did not instantly identify the present she spoke of, from 2014 to 2017 she performed Erin Lindsay on the NBC police drama, Chicago P.D.

She opened up about her departure from the collection in December 2017, telling Refinery 29’s Unstyled podcast that she was given two choices: change her surroundings or have her character written off. “It was then that I realized I’d been drowning. It was then that I knew just how miserable I was going to work every day,” Bush recalled on the time. “I had to respect myself in a situation where I didn’t feel respected.”

PEOPLE reached out to Bush’s rep for remark and didn’t instantly hear again.

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