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Nick Cannon posted an emotional tribute to his son Zen, a 12 months after he died from a mind tumor at solely 5 months previous. The TV host, 42, shared a photograph of himself cradling Zen in addition to a couple of different photographs of Zen on Instagram, as he recalled how troublesome the day he died was. He revealed that he had a sleepless evening earlier than the “painful anniversary” of his demise on Monday, December 5. “Mentally and Spiritually I’m broken,” he wrote. “Been tossing and turning all night, and as much as I know I need rest, last night I couldn’t sleep at all.”
Nick known as the day that Zen died the “toughest day of [his] life,” and spoke about how he nonetheless has so many feelings following his son’s sudden and surprising demise. “Losing a child has to be the heaviest, most dark and depressive experiences that I will never get over. A mixture of guilt, pain, and sorrow is what I suppress daily,” he wrote.
The Masked Singer host additionally spoke about how a lot he tries to share and unfold love and mentioned he wished his son may’ve skilled it extra throughout his quick lifetime. “I love big and I love with my entire Heart and Soul and I just wish my Little Man could’ve felt more of that love while he was here on Earth,” he wrote.
Nick additionally revealed {that a} religious chief had advised him he was “in the midst of one of the most challenging seasons of [his] life,” and he spoke about his current hospitalization for pneumonia. He mentioned that he may use prayers whereas trying again on the demise of his son. ” I can undoubtedly use these prayers proper now,” he wrote with a damaged coronary heart emoji. “Continue to Peacefully Rest My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally.”
Zen was Nick’s seventh little one. He fathered the child with mannequin Alyssa Scott in June 2021. Throughout the 12 months, Alyssa has shared a lot of heartbreaking tributes to her son. Nearly a 12 months after their son’s demise, Nick and Alyssa introduced that they have been anticipating one other little one, his twelfth. She shared a nude photoshoot to share the information. “This is a MIRACLE & a BLESSING,” she wrote within the caption.
Alyssa has made her Instagram non-public, however earlier than she did she shared a transferring memorial for Zen in August. “My body feels it. I’ve been on the verge of tears the last few days. Trying to keep a forward momentum,” she wrote. “I miss my boy.”