One 12 months later, Nick Cannon remains to be scuffling with the tragic lack of his toddler son.
Back in early December of final 12 months, the Nick Cannon Show alum revealed he and Alyssa Scott misplaced their 5-month-old son Zen Scott Cannon. The toddler died following a troublesome bout with mind most cancers early in his all-too-short life. Now, one 12 months after Zen’s passing, Nick is memorializing the late child boy as soon as once more.
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Early Monday morning, the 42-year-old father took to his Instagram account to mirror on Zen’s quick life and heartbreaking dying. Nick additionally revealed some particulars about his present mindset throughout this troublesome time. Writing a protracted message about coping with the lack of his son, the Wild’N Out host began:
“Physically I’m definitely on the mend but Mentally and Spiritually I’m broken. Been tossing and turning all night, and as much as I know I need rest, last night I couldn’t sleep at all. I can’t believe it’s been a year already since the toughest day of my life occurred. Such a painful anniversary.”
He went on to mirror on how shedding Zen has been a “dark and depressive” factor to should face. We can’t even think about what he and Alyssa have been via with their grief over the previous 12 months.
Related: Alyssa Reveals The Last Words She Said To Zen Before His Death
The Drumline star defined:
“Losing a child has to be the heaviest, most dark and depressive experiences that I will never get over. A mixture of guilt, pain, and sorrow is what I suppress daily. I am far from perfect and often fall short and make decisions in my life that many question, but anyone who knows me knows my heart. I love hard, I love big and I love with my entire Heart and Soul and I just wish my Little Man could’ve felt more of that love while he was here on Earth.”
Admirably, the TV star tried to be optimistic in regards to the state of affairs. Later within the message, he defined how a religious advisor had been readily available to assist counsel him via the ache:
“One of my Spiritual Leaders recently told me that I am in the midst of one of the most challenging seasons of my life, but encouraged me to be steadfast and know that all of this will only make me stronger, and to not lean on my own understanding but to rely on the the peace that surpasses all. But let me tell you, it’s tough…”
Cannon was lately hospitalized whereas battling pneumonia — and he touched on that current medical trial, too:
“I know a few days ago I wrote a post from my hospital bed saying I will be okay and I just needed rest so don’t waste your prayers on me but I can definitely use those prayers right now…”
But finally, his full focus was on Zen as he concluded:
“Continue to Peacefully Rest My Son, Zen Scott Cannon. We Love you Eternally”
Along with the message, Nick shared a sequence of pictures of Zen throughout his temporary life. Those photos included an lovely shot of the proud poppa holding his little boy:
Ugh. Just terrible and heartbreaking.
Our sorrows proceed for Nick and Alyssa over having gone via this loss. The AGT host has a full household(s) and plenty of love round him, after all. But nothing can exchange a baby, and no period of time will make all of it OK. So unhappy…
R.I.P.